Good morning,Joanna!& its the PC again.Still working my ass off for my Design & Layout final project.Suddenly I feel relieved that I didn't choose to take Graphic Design over Mass Comm at the first place.I have no sense of creativity AT ALL.Of course,or else I would've finished this mock magazine thingy ages ago,instead of still being stuck here and still cracking my brains out for my double-spread layout.Just for the sake of enlightening my mood a bit,I went around surfing at people's blogs just now & came across Suzanne's blog.Seems like Media Law & Ethics final presentation is finally over.Congratulations girls!Then there were pictures of them taken right after their 'moot court' thingy,which looked like fun.& I suddenly had this really sad + lonely + isolated feeling.My first thought was:Hey,all my friends are there!& then the 2nd thought was:Where was I?Followed by the pang of realization:Oh ya,of course,I no longer take any subjects with them anymore.Sigh~I miss them sooo much.Its like classes without my own bunch of coursemates just...don't feel like classes anymore.This semester is so terrible.I feel like a total loner coz my classmates are all juniors.& they have all formed their own gangs already,so basically what I do is hang/sit around with a vacant expression on my face(which I have been putting on for 1 sem already) and try to jut in some conversations once in a while.& when class is over,I basically race back home.God knows what happened to those lunch outings I used to go to wif my coursemates before.Gone gone away.Sigh~everytime I'm in college I begin to wonder:How come I don't know this college anymore?Look at the people around,I don't even know who these people are!They're all faceless to me.The worst thing was,I hardly even get to catch a glimpse of my own batch of coursemates!Its like everyone just vanished in thin air.Guess its because their classes are all in the morning,whereas I only have mine in the afternoon.Then there comes those old friends of other courses like Lionel & Hau Shen who ALWAYS asks me "Hey,alone geh?where are the others?Dang leh,Jest leh..?"Another stooping sensation in my stomach.Yes,don't doubt it,I'm a loner.
Of course,this is all thanks to my transferring to NZ next year,which,hopefully I get to go.Coz I still haven't got the acceptance letter yet.If not,congratulations,I'll have to continue with these dreadful lonely semesters here.*praying real hard*If everything goes well this should be my last semesters already.Hey girls,go have lunch someday leh?If not I won't get to see u all already loh.Always wanted to ask you guys out but everytime I see your blogs I change my mind.Coz everybody seems sooooo bz!I don't even dare to suggest the idea.Can already imagine your panda eyes and all.lol.Guess I'm the only person who's like...too blardy free.But really hope to see you gals more before I leave UCSI le,will definitely miss u all.Or you all set a time when everybody is free(since u'll be seeing each other so it'll be more convenient) then inform me?That is only if u all wanna meet up la,if not nvm.*sob sob*
K,gotta continue wif my work edi.Sigh x1000...Take care u gals.
