Come to think of it,I don't even know why I'm in Mass communication course.I don't even like communicating.I seldom take the initiative to get to know people when I'm in a new environment,I'm lazy to make phonecalls,I seldom talk when I'm at home,I prefer to be the listener when I'm with a group of friends(unless if I'm drunk or utterly tired but don't get to sleep or when I'm high in caffeine),I'm lazy to think of topics to talk about,I prefer to sink into my own thoughts when I can actually be mingling around with people.When I talk,I'm lazy to make myself clear,& when people misunderstand I don't even bother to explain.*suddenly realises*Oh my god!Am I a hermit?How on earth can a hermit excel in the Mass Comm industry?& to think I'm even dreaming of hosting programs & being a DJ when I dun even wanna open my darn mouth to talk when I'm singing on stage.I must be out of my mind.
I guessed I chose Mass Comm because I know I can do well in the course without even spending much effort.True.Coz suddenly like a few days ago,somebody told me I was in the Dean's list,for 2 semesters in fact.Not trying to brag,but honestly,I don't even remember much about working very hard in any of the subjects.Ok,not to say I didn't work hard,but at least I didn't work EXTREMELY hard.Dean's list...gah!Why on earth do I want to be on Dean's list for?I want to get the Overall Achievement Award or the President Award,which involves cash incentives of like a few hundred bucks!Typical of our money-minded college.We get into the Dean's list without even needing to apply for it,but for the other 2 awards,we can't get them even if we apply for it.Of course,the latter involves $$,whereas the former,some stupid cert a.k.a a piece of paper.Again,I'm not being ungrateful.Of course I'm happy my CV's much more nicer now with the additional certs,but I really hoped I got the money so that I can take up Japanese language course.Sigh~now my dreams are all shattered coz this is my last semester already & no matter how much I work hard for these 2 subjects I'm taking,I'd never qualify for another award coz I don't meet the minimum 4 subjects acquirement.Sigh(again),guess I'll just have to loan money from my mum & work my ass off to pay her back wif my kacang puteh side income salaries to learn Japanese.Sigh(for the 3rd time)...
I'm going to keep discouraging people to study in UCSI.
